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March 6th, 2005
09:44 pm - Dance was fun
Well, dance was fun, I ran the sound for the first set, then we played, than Jessica's dad took over ^__^ thaks Brian. Anwyay, was fun, we had our own table, was great, people liked my solo on Little Brown Jug, i guess it wasn't too bad. After our last set we all went to the lounge wand watched Sex, Toys and Chocolate on the tv, lol, cept like me and Bibs, I just spent the time flirtin with her, lol, twas quite fun. Hope CIS is as fun :D
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March 4th, 2005
11:45 pm - Back to normal
well, life is finally back to what it's used to be, everyday boring and nothing to look forward for exept having to get over 300$ in less than 30 days. O well, whatever, too lazy to edit mood and what not...
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February 27th, 2005
12:55 am - Butt-Man, and other adventures.
heh, nice find Lizzy ;)
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Anyway, today was not too fun, sick still, last night I was talkin to Curtney about some stuff, like me liking her and stuff. She said that it was a surprise to her, and today it was brought back up, she said that she doesn't really know what to say or how she feels about it, but she's thinking about it. Wow, we've been talking to each other for like 5 hours... it's soo great... she's soo sweet :)
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Poem I wrote for Courtney...
'Something and Nothings'
We laugh to no end when we talk about nothings,
but the nothings I say are really just covered up somethings,
I cant explain the way you make me feel in the way that you do,
I dont know if what you say is real, but from me my words are all true.
This dream i see, wishing it could some day come true,
but yet I fail to tell you, how I feel how I do,
I guess sometimes it's hard to tell somethings,
and just let them fade away into the dark, into nothings.
Hope that we can talk about some of whats going on sometime, i think things are looking pretty good though :)
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sick.gif) Sick, but happy
Current Music: None
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February 20th, 2005
08:53 pm - Tomorow, can't wait :P
WEll yea, tomorow I get to finally meet Mel in person :) I 'm soo exited about it, gonna be fun, she's really nice, so I hope it'll work out, Jen says it will, lol, I trust her :P
Thanks Jen :) !!! *HUGS*
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) WHEEE!
Current Music: Bad Kareoke >__
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February 16th, 2005
09:40 pm - WOW, long time :P
Hm... where to start...lets see, me and Nikki broke up, i went out with Mandy, and now we're boke up, lol. hm... let's see... what else new?... about it :P
Well, today was a bad day. just wasn't in a good mood. the lack of emotional effection towards me is really bothering me, seeing that my last 2 relationships had none, and it kinda makes me feel like shit, or another kind of lowly sedemant... Well, for some reason I think I'm starting to crush on someone, and normally I dont just crush, it's usually more, but it's odd, o well, lol, my bro said that "she totally wants you dude", lol, and I we were just jokin around how we always do about this and that. But I dunno, is it all just joking? who knows, I officially start my new chapter tonight :)
Current Mood: Oddly Content
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September 10th, 2004
11:11 pm - Back!!!
Hey, I know it's been forever since I updated, and quite a bit has happend. To say the least, I got with A girl I've had a crush on for almost 3 years, my life is starting to get back on the high with my music and all, and, I think I might be falling in love with her... I dont know for sure, but I get that sort of feeling everytime I'm around her, and when I look her in the eyes, I seem to just loose myself in hers and just get all dreamy... Also, tonight we went to see RE:A , and it was really good... but... could someone please tell me what happend after they got on the hellicopter and flew off?... I was... um... pfft, making out. ^^;
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August 30th, 2004
10:48 am - Party Last Night
Well, went to the party, wasn't really all tat fun, but still good to see people. We went for a walk to a lake or pnd or something so Liz could get a drink, got there and she changed her mind cus it was too dark, lol. Anyway, when we got back to the house Becky wanted to go for a walk further down the road, so I walked with her so she wasn't alone. We had a good talk. The later on she was sittin behind the garage house thing, I went around and sat with her, talked some more. I thought it was good cus we never really talked alot before, so that part of the night was good i guess :)
ps/ i miss my guitar :(
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August 22nd, 2004
03:51 pm - Random outburst of pain...
random outburst of fuckin loneliness pain, nothing special, just ignore this...
Current Mood: Alone
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10:45 am - Rainy Night at The Ex
Ok, so last night when i got toe the ex, I walked in, I yurned towards my mom for a second to get my money *yay for money* and then I get jumped by some random crazy person (oh you know I luv ya Lizzy) lol, so yea, then we were talking a bit the I get jumped again, lol, this time it was Tara. her and Chelsea were there, Chels having won a good number of things at the games, lol. Anyway, so me and Liz walk around looking for Becky. We ran into Tyler, then Gabe wondered up outa nowere, stood there and talked for a bit, was cool. Then me and Lizzy walked around a couple more times tryin to find Becks again. No luck... so we went on the Zipper... and soon after we were going, it started to rain... so they stoped the ride and let us off... it wasn't bad, so we went on the cyclone*i thinbk that was the name* it wasn't bad, till we started going forward, IT WAS PRACTICALLY A DOWNPOUR BY THEN!!! But it was fun, *I GOT YOU WET ON THE RIDE LIZ!* heh ;)
Alos, we spoted Becky when we were on the ride, so when we got off, we went to shelter, cus it was raining... then Liz wanted to go on another ride, so we did. And got more wet, lol. But as some people know, I love the rain :) so I had a good time. We were going to leave, then my mom told me I had to go home with them, :( I wanted to go with Becks and Liz cus I knew it would've been more fun, lol. But it's ok.
Then, we went to the venus video, i rented Butterfly Effect, and Eurotrip, had a late lonely night watching movies. And I've ben watching alot of movies lately, quit lonely when you dont have someone to watch them with, but o well, wont be like that forever :)
Anyways, I'm now off to find something to do. Laters! *HUGS FOR ALL*
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August 21st, 2004
12:18 pm - Exebition Today :D
Ok, I'm goin to the ex today, I think I'm pickin up Tara on the way, I'm not sure yet, but I'm plannin on going anyway. Gonna be seein Fally, for the first time in a loong time, lol, ever since i first met her i believe, she's cool, she's also Andre's gf. But he's a bastard and has to work, so he wont be there *the looser, lol* Well, nothin else new, aside from a new midi pack released on SC, which means nothing to anyone else here cus you dont go there/have acces to the site, lol.
So, i guess I'm off, peace!
Current Mood: Flirty
Current Music: Orbital - Funny Break (Plump Dj's Remix)
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August 17th, 2004
06:24 pm - Goth Whore Pimpin' ;)
Today was a great day, lol. First off, I was in the shower, left a note outside saying that anyone who showed up to come in and waint in my room. So I got out, threw on some clothes, and ran upstairs and Stan as standing there at the door. I found it amusing cus I dont know how long he was just standing there, lol. Anyway, we went down to my room, i finished getting ready, Liz and Megan showed up. The were shouting from the door something, dunno what, but i guess they didn't want to take off their boots, lol, so i told em to leave them on. We went to mall, was fun, but Stan had to leave at around 4ish. So we hung out for a while...and I saw her for the first time since school ended... and yup... I still have that crush on her for sure now... I just hope I get to talk to her sometime soon, cus there's quite a bit we have to talk about. Not just me asking her out, but I think I should tell her about before too, in case she hadn't guessed you know :P.
Anyway, was a fun fun day.
Yesterday, me and Nick hung out at Gord's most of the day, was fun, but that was yesterday, so I'm not gonna go into detail, was fun, lots of walking though @__@.
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August 13th, 2004
01:28 pm - PS/
I wanna go to Brenna's play, someone should pick me up :P
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01:13 pm - Warm...HOT day X__X
my god it's a nice day out, I think that I want to go swimming... but, as usual, no way to escape the house :P...
Last night was great, lol, Beth called me out or noweres and told me o ask if I can go out and that they'd be here in two minutes... now, I'm always allowed out, but I still found it amusing cus she hung up before I even got up to ask, lol. Anyway, you can read all we did in her LJ, lol, it's all there, the whole DQ, Gord's, HAHA, THE BOWL!!! *inside joke*
also, I got to go to mall earlier on in the day With T, :P , good job buying that webcam with your change dear ;).
Anyways, this morning my mom came in my room and told me top get ready cus were going to Pizza Delight for the buffet... this was at 9... we left around 9:20...we got there at 12:00... But the food was good, lol. And I saw Homer as we were leaving, so I said hi and all... he doesn't seam to hate me that much ^^; not like T's father anyways... :( I wish he wasn't still mad at me, cus I just did what I knew was best for us both... and T's all happy now with her new 'puupy' :P haha
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August 12th, 2004
09:21 am - Busking Day
Ok, so today I'm gonna try and get into Middleton, cus aparently, we're gonna busk for money, lol. I desided to go cus I really wanna get out of the house, so I'm guessing that me and April (summer's sister) will be taking turns playin the guitar, not really sure... but as long as I get to play tetris, I'll be happy :)
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August 11th, 2004
05:57 pm - hm... new song...
Well, my new song, a remix / redo of "Silence" by Sarah M. , my buddy Glover said he liked it, but that it needs alot of work, which is true, but Gaz West said that the vocals didn't quite work... I'm confused with that. anyway, it's here if you wanna hear it ; http://www.audiostreet.net/sgf
enjoy ^^
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09:41 am - ^ ^;;
heh... i just realized how much I'm still crushing on someone, no it's not you T ;)
but like, *giggles* lol. like really though... I've been for how long? 2 1/2 years?
lol, maybe I'll have to talk to her, or just try and court the lady ;)
big hugs to whoever can guess who "Kala hun, you dont count, cus I know you know who it is :P "
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09:14 am - @__@ oi...
I'm soo bored... and these past few days have been hell... but i realize it's not really due to what i thought it was, which will make some people relieved i think *;)* well, for one, I didn't realize it, but I'm actually soo upset like this, because i never actually thought about it, and thats that I'm just really lonely, and the past three years of my life, I've always had someone there. SO I was thinking alot, and I think that people may have been right... maybe i do need some alone time...
*MY DREAM LAST NIGHT*
OMG!!! MY DREAM RULED, I ALMOST GOT KILLED LIKE 100 TIMED :D
.... wait, bad way to start off.... ok, let me elaborate...
the dream was basicly Alien vs. Predator... and for some reason, I had this huge ass shotgun and I was fighting the Predators with the alien, which for some reason, his name was Dederian, I was like, wtf? Tuxedo max? ANYWAY, it was sooo messed up, but i remember thta there was a little counter thingy counting how many of them we killed, and one ran by and fell, the the counter went up, lol, the alien was like, "heh, stupid fuck nuts", which I believe came from the 4 hour show with the dude who wrote; Clerks, Mall Rats, Chasing Amy, Dogma, etc... god he's funny, lol, and even Jay showed up for one of the interviews XD it was great waste of 24o minutes yesterday seeins as I didn't get the compy, oi -_-
at least now we have some Kareoke music that I actually like.
I also though of a new song that I might be writing sometime... I have the chorus thought up, but dont take it into literal meanings :P the idea of killing someone isn't really that pleasuring ;P
"HEY" maybe I'm a little crazy
"HEY" cus this killing it pleases me
"HEY" It's the me that you dont see
"Hey" maybe I'm a little loco
"HEY" and maybe slowly loosing control
"HEY" maybe I'm just trying to FILL MY FANTASY
then it goes like really heavy and shit, then goes quiet short acoustic fill like thing... anyway, lol, maybe you'll hear it if I ever get a band made up, which is doubtfull seeing as I'm struggling with my record deal now, so, lol
GHAAA
no more babbling, just soo lonely, no one to talk to ;__;
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) Shitty
Current Music: Numb - Linkin Park (Michael Feihstel Remix)
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August 9th, 2004
11:58 am - Back to work today @__@
Allo all, last night was fun, for the most part, I'm still a little upset about yesterday, but happy with the result :) better to be friends then nothing i guess. Well, like i said, the fire was fun, it was at chelsea's house, and there was me, Tara R, Tara S, Beth, John , Will, Andrea, Kevin(two of em, lol, dunno last names), and of course, Chelsea and her sister.
WORK SUCKS! >_<, i dun wanna go, but at least it's not another 8 hour shift on till the whole time, I'm workin the floor shift from 7-11, so it's not that bad. An besides, i need money, for Chinese food ;) , among other things, and stuff, lol
anyways, I'm bored, so I'm off,
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Scooter - How Much Is The Fish
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August 8th, 2004
01:45 pm - After thoughts...
Well, in case anyone is curious, the song is a true story about a part of my life that is quite recent... and I know that some of you know what I'm talking about, and think I'm stupid for falling for her, but for one, I cant help it, and two, I dont care... I think she's a really nice girl and I just wish that I could tell her how I feel...
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01:12 pm - Lonely Voice Inside My Heart
Everyone tells me that I'm a good guy/they tell me I'll find love, well I know it's a lie/ cus everytime I fall for someone I always crash down hard/ I know I set myself up for this, I'm such a fuckin retard/ I wish I could tell you everything thats on my mind/ I got a secret to tell , the very best kind/ but I know you wont like to hear it so I just wont say/ I'm all alone, this voice inside, and it's just how I will stay/
//Chorus//
This voice inside my heart, it's calling out to you/
I know how I feel, and that it's love for true/
but you say your heart is anoethers gem/
and all I can think, is just fucking goddamn/
All alone in this house, I'm breaking up, and I gotta get out/
I know I am strong, all I can do is shout/
to myself telling me to keep my tears in the dark/
but I can't help but cry, for ignoring the voice inside my heart.
My heart is pounding, when you are around/ but wait, "smash" bleed, i just hit the ground/ cus I know that I'm nothing to you, and that's a fact/ i swore to myself, but fuck this pact/I just want to know if it could work/ a life of just the two of us, with no hurt/ but just when I think I have a chance with you i remember why/ I'll never have the place in your heart because of another guy/
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: *Beat for this song*
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